As some of you may recall, shortly before I became pregnant with Finley, our family experienced an early miscarriage. If you have ever experienced a miscarriage, my heart goes out to you. If you have not, I pray that you never will. It is a pain that I would not wish upon my worst enemy. No matter how far along you may be, you begin to fall in love at the very moment you discover you are pregnant and you grieve just the same. It was a very difficult time for me, but through it, I tried to remember that THAT was not the baby that God intended us to have here on earth and that we WOULD have another baby someday soon. So, when we became pregnant again very soon after, I was overjoyed.
Now, as I look at my 7 month only Finley Grace, I am in awe. I know with everything in me that she is the sweet baby that God intended for us, and I could not love her more. I could not imagine another baby being any more magnificent than her. She is truly beautiful and absolutely AMAZING! It does not mean I don't still mourn for that baby we lost, or that my miscarriage was a good thing...but I do understand why it happened and I thank God for bringing us something so beautiful out of the darkness.
I took this photo of Finley a few days ago, and found that it perfectly sums up exactly what she means to us. She is proof that if we wait for God and are patient with his timing, things will work out as they are supposed to. Be it waiting for a baby, or waiting for something else, I have to remind myself that through it all, it will be beautiful in the end.
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.- Ecclesiastes 3:11
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